Writing Just to Write

I didn't cry at church for the first time since the end of February. So I'm ready to move on from that.

Tomorrow I have a follow up with the doctor I saw for a high heart rate. I'm prepared to convince him that I don't need the medication that he put me on. He was hoping it would take care of both my heart rate and migraines. Well, it seemed to lower my heart rate, but it didn't touch the headaches. But I think it was making me have even less energy, be more tired, and more depressed. I don't need all that, even if my heart rate is a little high.

Michael (8) got up this morning and got little brother's and his breakfast ready on his own without being asked. Wow, I like having older self-sufficient kids. It fits right in with my selfish, lazy lifestyle.

The sun is finally coming out again. I definitely think it affects my mood when it is gone. I may need a second home in a sunshine state to visit at will.

I signed up for E-mealz.com a couple of days ago. I'm so excited because I spent no time stressing over what was going to be for dinner tonight. I made potato salad earlier and will throw the main course together in a bit. This is awesome. Hopefully, we will save some money from not eating out.

Hello. I'm still here.

It's been awhile. Lots has happened. I've had to recover from some of it. I think I'm still recovering. I still feel sadness and some anger. I cry alot. (Mom, I'm not saying I'm depressed...yet...so I don't need the lecture.) I hope writing will help.

There are only 3 1/2 more days of school next week. I can't decide if I'm happy or sad. Happy that I can get up at leisure for the most part instead of with an alarm. Sad that I will have to think more about meals and our daily schedule (I'm so lazy, huh).

The kids have various things they are signed up for peppered throughout the summer. Other than that, we will just roll along until next school year. We just got back from the south and no more trips are scheduled. We will swim and maybe do some camping. Hopefully I can help them not watch too much tv or play too much xbox. But that means I need to plan. But I'm lazy. So we'll see.